Posted by: Judy | April 7, 2015

Scott instigated another post…

Scott Williams posted this, back on March 25th:

http://scott-williams.ca/2015/03/25/you-suck/

I read it and started this post on March 26th.

Whenever I travel somewhere else, I give myself permission to be more of myself than I am at home.

Oddly enough, I berate myself for not being more daring. I needed to rethink my definition of daring. No, I don’t do stupid stuff. I just don’t. I believe in learning from the mistakes of others, whenever possible.

The 26th I read a meme from Hope for the Broken Hearted about not believing the lies told about you and believing God instead. I reposted and included the note about the importance of not believing the lies I tell myself like “I’m not good enough.” “I’m not worthy.” And “I’m not lovable.”

Another friend posted scriptures and memes about trusting God and putting my cares on him (1 Peter 5:7). One of the K-LOVE radio hosts talked about not being afraid.

I was worried about not having a true change of heart like Saul.

Reality Check: I’ve never murdered Christians nor encouraged it. As my sister reminded me:

I don’t need a 180-degree change of heart. I’m not fighting against God. I struggle in my relationship with Him, but I’ve no doubt He’s present and not simply aware of me but loves me. I love Him. I’m not as good at showing it as I’d like to be.

Different problem altogether.

I’ve lamented not being brave. Another reality check.

I survived the insanity of living in a house without resorting to the use of drugs, alcohol, or anything else beyond my imagination. The food didn’t come until my 20s. Guess where I learned storytelling? It’s a great escape. God took a horrible situation and found a way for it to bless my life. I haven’t been properly grateful. Not that it happened but that God provided a way to turn it for my good.

Not daring? I applied to work in Yellowstone for a summer. None of my friends even considered the idea. Even many of those I met there arrived with a friend. I served a mission in Thailand. Blessedly I had a companion all the time, but I still took the step into the adventure. I went to Europe, alone. Yes, friends there helped me, but I also put a lot of trust in people I didn’t know, in every situation. I became involved in the “Lord of the Rings” fan community. I had the opportunity to hear Howard Shore speak and see The Two Towers a week early. It required flying to California and meeting one of my online friends, for the first time. What a treasured friendship that still is. I went to ELF, another LOTR conference, and met several more online friends. I went to ALEP, another LOTR event, and one of my online friends picked me up at the airport, in Tennessee, and we drove to Kentucky. I sent my manuscript into Harlequin, twice. The second time I prayed for them to reject it and cheered when they did. Then I sent my manuscript to a small publishing company, Desert Breeze Publishing, and signed several contracts with them. I self published novellas in eformat and then made them into a paperback, with help from all kinds of wonderful people. But I instigated it.

Not brave? Really?

Not perfect. Definitely.

So thanks, Scott. I’m done bragging for the moment.

One more thing: I know I wouldn’t have accomplished any of it without God’s love and encouragement. I love how He sends other people to give me exactly what I need when I need it.


Responses

  1. Woohoo….I want a love it button….I love you. Hugs.

    • 🙂 Love you, too, sis. ((Ruth))

  2. You go! You have and are doing awesome things!

    • Thanks, TR!


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