Forgiveness…

I read Dr. Edith Eva Eger’s memoir “The Choice: Embrace the Possible.” It’s a tough read. She survived the Holocaust, Auschwitz, and learned to thrive. In my own counseling, with my third counselor, it was difficult for me to wrap my head around his declaration that I was a concentration camp survivor. He had me read Viktor Frankl’s “Man’s Search for Meaning” to help me understand my own growing up experience. I had to obey and bargain with the camp guards (my parents and more particularly my mother) to survive. I still struggle with this.

Many of Dr. Eger’s feelings mirrored my own. I loved her perspective of working through what happened. Toward that end, I realized I still haven’t fully forgiven myself. I definitely don’t love my body.

God has been preparing me. Though I fear I’m not ready, I know that if God brings me to it, He will bring me through it.