Posted by: Judy | May 2, 2019

Discouragement and Gratitude

I looked over my goals/gifts and discovered the unsettling realization that my weight hasn’t changed. A whole month of changes and nothing changed. It’s discouraging.

The good news: I’m not beating myself up.

I’m acknowledging that I’m eating healthier than ever before in my life.

My workout is vastly different from the end of March when I was still recovering from being sick. I wasn’t walking, and now I walk 2 miles 4 days a week and 1 mile 2 days a week. I’ve increased my physical therapy from 2 or 3 reps with no weights, to adding a rep to my heavy days, up to 23 reps as of yesterday with no weights, and 3 reps with 1 pound weights on my light days. Sunday is my day off. Several days a week I do yard work and Saturdays I do housecleaning.

I’m learning to be in bed before 10 PM most nights. I wake around 5 AM, give or take a little.

My water intake is about on target.

My habits have improved. My health has improved.

While I’m discouraged by my lack of weight loss, I have a great deal for which to be grateful. I need to change my expectations. Or perhaps, I need to be more honest about my expectations.

Why do I want to lose weight?

I want to be able to bend over to tie my shoes without my fat being in the way. It’s painful. I want to be able to wear smaller clothes, as in one or two sizes smaller. They’re less expensive. I already have lovely clothes in slightly smaller sizes.

I’ve saved money by not buying holiday candy. I’m spending it on other things and saving it. I like that. Another benefit.

An unexpected benefit is the improved self-confidence of knowing I’m physically able to do so much more than I thought I could. I’m also proud of myself for doing it all in healthy ways.

I still have days when I beat myself up, but today is not that day. 🙂

Yes, I took a lot of pictures of this cloud formation. I thought it was so cool, and the sunset reflecting on it was amazing.


Responses

  1. You’ve got this… maybe start tracking your food, then with your exercising, healthy eating, water drinking you’ll see “where” you need to make changes in the foods you choose. SOON the weight will come off.

    • I have tracked food intake. I know where the problems are. I confess what’s discouraging to me is that I’ve upped my calories out and it doesn’t make a difference. Only by reducing calories do I lose weight. Maddening. It’s simply taking longer than my impatient soul likes. 😀

  2. It’s so hard to lose weight. And the thing, I think, that makes it so difficult is that everything in our modern world (food conveniences, sedentary lifestyle, etc.) exacerbates weight gain.

    Anyway – I’m pulling and praying for you. I’m on my own similar journey, and it is so easy to get discouraged.

    • Thank you so much! Go us! 🙂


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