Posted by: Judy | February 6, 2019

Blessed by Others

I’ve been struggling with forgiving.

Debbie, in Bible study, decided to change the lesson. Instead of moving on to Genesis 42, she returned to the previous chapter about Joseph forgiving. In God’s hands, there is hope and healing.

An hour and a half later, I read this post by One Grateful Leper:

https://theonegratefulleper.wordpress.com/2019/01/29/yes-they-hurt-you-but-your-healing-is-your-responsibility/

I need to not dwell on what happened. It’s in the past. Yes, I needed to focus on it in order to address it, but what more is there for me to work through?

I spent most of my life living with abuse in the present. It’s over. Yes, I’m reminded of how my father didn’t simply fail to protect my sister and me but used us to protect himself from his wife. He still uses me as a shield, from time to time, if I let him. Sometimes, I forget, so I’ve still a bit to learn myself.

The past cannot be changed. She is gone. Allowing myself to be dragged into the past means me giving her and him my power. I’m learning.


Responses

  1. Am so so proud of you

    • Thank you. ❤


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