Posted by: Judy | June 25, 2018

I’m stressed…

I can finally state it in all honesty. I can own it. I knew it wasn’t really registering in my brain, but I didn’t know how to go about changing that. My brain may not have been registering it, but my body definitely was. Eating has been atrocious. Sleeping has been spotty. I was doing so well. I knew something was coming. Knocked me off my feet, but I’m not devastated. My world blew up in my face, but I’m not curled up in the fetal position. I’m handling chaos better. Go me.

Sunday, I finally cried. Not a lot but it felt like an important step toward closure. It’s the end of a chapter, a great chapter. My publishing house had great owners. They gave me a chance, believed in me. I’m grateful.

There is no question about what I’m going to do.

Frodo Baggins: “I know what I must do. It’s just… I’m afraid to do it.”

In the middle of writing this post, Anna Huckabee Tull, over at “Living the Deeper YES,” shared some timely and important insights:

https://livingthedeeperyes.wordpress.com/2018/06/23/why-things-sometimes-suck/

My first thought was that asking for easy was all wrong. I continued reading. Oh. Not what I expected and exactly what I needed. A step back would help, but now isn’t a good time. So much is coming at me. Stepping back will be an avoidance pattern, at this point. I need to schedule some breaks. Not easy. I was called lazy too often.

What I need to do so I feel like I can take a break: Contact my cover artist and find out what it’s going to cost me for re-working the covers I bought back. I need to budget payments to her. I need to figure out how long it will take me to work through each book. I used to be able to do it in a week. It was also all I did. I have to schedule in everything else I’m doing.

I needed a fresh look, and the above blog post gave me that. Can’t tackle my chaos the same way, but it helps me consider other options.


Responses

  1. Hang in there! Many of us are going through our own challenges in life. I really feel that the best way to deal with stress and fear is to exercise. I know it is hard when we are tired, but it is amazing how exercise and listening to a good Podcast or music gives us strength. do you know the song, “Be Not Afraid?” It’s very nice… https://youtu.be/QSDkKsoqyaE
    Have a good day!

    • Thanks.


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