Posted by: Judy | August 31, 2017

How to know I’m stressed…

Too often, I merrily go along thinking I’m coping just fine. Then something smacks me in the face and grumbles, “No, you’re coping but not fine.”

What brought this up?

Tuesday I went grocery shopping. At the time, I did not comprehend the evidence right before my eyes.

If your shopping cart has several boxes of PopTarts when you have several boxes at home already, bags of chocolate candy (a couple of Twix and one of Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups, ostensibly for a friend but I eat them too), and chocolate cake… yes, a good indicator I’m stressed.

I’m spending more time simply sitting, unable to pin down any particular thought long enough to do something about it. Or my thoughts are racing and crowding.

Why didn’t I see?

I’m sleeping better. I’m keeping the house clean. I’m preparing meals. I’m not gaining weight. I’m keeping up with my exercise routine. I sing every day.

What does this tell me?

I have a new “normal.” Cool. It also means I need to be aware of my stress signs. I let the out-of-control things go too long. It stresses me more to see what I’m not accomplishing… okay, it stresses me that I’m not writing as an author…

I write, every day, on social media and blogs. This is not enough for me.

How do I explain? I’ll choose my favorite metaphor: Food. It’s like eating everyday. You eat every day, but you notice the difference between the meals when you grab something and the days you make an effort to prepare what you know makes you feel better.

This happened to be the next picture in my file; it fits. I feel like I’m raining inside, busy with all the rain coming down, noisy lightning and thunder, gray blocking the colors I crave, maybe necessary but not particularly wanted.


Responses

  1. Would it help if I tell you that when I look at your picture I can see the rain, and the dark grey skies and there may be thunder as well,but I do not see flooding. So your head is still above water. Is this progress but not perfection? That is what most of us are working with. And btw I think I may have an addiction to chocolate so I have to keep only small quantities of it in the house. If I lived closer I’d come over and help you out with that chocolate cake!

    • Thank you for an awesome response! πŸ˜€ Yes, progress, not perfection, and there is definite progress. πŸ™‚ We really need transporters to solve this distance problem. πŸ˜‰ Thanks for making me laugh. ❀

      • You are most welcome. Laughter is a great cure all.

        • Yes, it is.


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

Categories

%d bloggers like this: