Posted by: Judy | March 8, 2012

Wait… What?

It was that kind of day. I had it all planned. Then the unexpected happened. I thought I knew what the day held. I planned it, after all. It surprised me. What I thought would take a few hours took all day. My brain is fried. I’ve eaten badly. I want to curl up and pretend like the day never happened, sort of, kind of, in a way. It could have been worse. It was frustrating. It’s important my work is perfect, and really frustrating when things beyond my control make it difficult. Is that cryptic enough?

Don’t mind me. It’s also the cycle. My hormones are not helping. I’m reaching the point where I want to throw up my hands for the whole week, and start over next week, but there isn’t time for such dramatics. So, tomorrow, I’ll start over.

Ugh. I hate when I eat this badly. Part of it was trying to run the avoidance pattern. Always a mistake now. It worked in the past, for me. It doesn’t work anymore. Great. Another habit to break.

Having had my little tantrum, I’m pleased to realize I am able to recognize the problem, and I’m not running away. I need to develop a plan of action, but I hardly know where to start. Okay, so that’s the next step: Figure out my new strategy for facing my old need to run the avoidance pattern that does more harm than good.

I saw this on my Funny Cat Photos widget, and knew I had to share it. πŸ™‚


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  1. That’s funny. (The picture) I so understand the post. I some times want to scream into the wind, “What do you mean this doesn’t work any more?” Hugs Judy, today is another day. Another chance. Another smile. The picture really does have me smiling. πŸ™‚

    • πŸ™‚ Today is a little better, so far, but it only started a few hours ago. There’s still time… LOL!

  2. Wow! I sure do understand where you’re at, in this post…all the way down to “eating badly”, though my version might be a bit different. Your’s seems to be giving in to junk food…mine? I don’t stop long enough to eat :)… Coffee seems to be my major sustenance, these days! lol!

    As Ruth said, today is another day. Isn’t it amazing, when you are struggling with something and walk away for a short time, how things just seem to “work” when you come back to them? I’ve had that happen a time or 2 myself.

    I love the picture! As fickle and unattached as cats seem, their expressions sure let you know “what’s up”, and “what’s coming”! (aka: growls, hisses and one pissed-off cat~). Enjoy your day, today!!

    • Thanks! I’m trying to make today a reset button. So far, so good.

  3. sometimes we just have to shake the etch-a-sketch and begin again

    here’s hoping your tomorrow looks better than this day did, and that you have enough distance to lay down a plan for avoiding avoidance. πŸ™‚

    • Ooooo I like that etch-a-sketch idea better than a restart button!

      I still don’t know how to change running the avoidance pattern. I mean, what other choice is there but confrontation? Who wants that?


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