Posted by: Judy | February 16, 2012

From the inside out…

I’m creating a program to help me re-create myself from the inside out.

It goes without saying God is part of my process, but I’m saying it to remind myself.

Jonsi, over at Open your Eyes and See posted a great article about things you can do to help yourself in overcoming the negative effects of dealing with a narcissist. It ties in perfectly with what I’m wanting to pursue and accomplish starting right now.

One of the things it mentions is the physical aspect, the importance of exercise, eating right, sleeping enough, etc. I’m supplementing my exercise routine. I’m being more careful about what I eat. Some days are better than others, of course, but I am doing better. Sleeping is still a tough one for me to work around. I don’t sleep well when I’m too warm, and the weather is fluctuating between highs and lows. There’s only so much within my power to control, but I am endeavoring to manage what I’m able.

I’m gradually going through my closet. If I haven’t worn something in the last year, even if I like it, out it goes. However, there are a few things there I haven’t worn, but I’m reluctant to part with, for sentimental reasons. It’s okay. I’m thinking about it. I realize if I give these things up, they will bless someone else. Clearing out my closet is also encouraging me to be more weight-reducing conscious. I have a complete wardrobe in two sizes smaller and three sizes smaller.

There is also the need to let go of the negative tape. Granted, I don’t hear it often anymore. I rarely use it to go to sleep anymore, only when I’m at my most stressed… wow… A good thing to realize after all this time.

Interestingly enough, though I’m terrified by the commitments I’ve made, I don’t have time to dwell on the fear, as I throw myself into my efforts to accomplish the tasks I’ve set for myself. Best Yoda voice: Do or do not. There is no try.  🙂 Deliberation is long over. I do not know what the future holds, but I do know who holds the future, and I will trust to Him.


  1. Wild Cheering from your cheering squad. 🙂

    • My cheering squad is invaluable. Thank you! 🙂

  2. Scary goals, yes, but you’ll feel so good when you accomplish them, or even a tiny step towards them. I also have the smaller size wardrobe – lovely things I had before I was a mom. Every year I part with more, but I can’t do it all at once.

    • Oh, yes. I have some dresses I had made especially for me, designs I’d created. Unfortunately, I grew another inch in my early 20s, and the dresses no longer fit, and never will. I haven’t been able to bring myself to letting go of them yet, but I’m thinking about it. I do have a back of clothes that fit at my top weight, but no longer fit now. A part of me was hanging onto them in case I gained the weight back. Can’t think that way anymore. So filling the bag, though haven’t made a plan to drop them off anywhere yet. I’ll make it. 🙂

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